I arrive home; open the mail and much to my surprise there is a suspicious charge on a bank account. Make a call to “the husband” and ask about the charge….whew! That was a can of worms! Stomach churning, mad as all get out, asking God – what the heck? I’m trying to make a house payment, pay utilities, car payment, etc. and he’s out spending money he doesn’t have and it’s taking money out of what he needs to pay me?! God are you paying attention? Do you see what he’s doing? Yea, I know I reacted mainly in my flesh…meaning I had all those old feelings and attitude of I’m not in control; I feel so inadequate and scared.
As I settle in, get Austin to bed and start praying, the discussion with God gets to “the desires of my heart.” I end up telling Him all the normal things that are a part of my “wants” then I tell Him I desire a warehouse building and truck for God’s Haven Ministry, a permanent building for Hope of Glory Church. Yes, these are some of the desires of my heart. But, I also asked “what else God? I’m not sure what else is considered a desire of my heart.” After this discussion/prayer I go to bed, trying to “not be angry.” But hey, I’m human!
Now you can read the first paragraph and understand a little of what was going on in my head. The morning began with constant phone calls from “the husband.” Unanswered I may say. I don’t have to talk with him. I have nothing to say. I still needed to cool down.
And then we have 1 Peter 3:8-10.
1 Peter 3:8-10 (New Living Translation)
8 Finally, all of you should be of one mind. Sympathize with each other. Love each other as brothers and sisters.[a] Be tenderhearted, and keep a humble attitude. 9 Don’t repay evil for evil. Don’t retaliate with insults when people insult you. Instead, pay them back with a blessing. That is what God has called you to do, and He will bless you for it. 10 For the Scriptures say,
“If you want to enjoy life
and see many happy days,
keep your tongue from speaking evil
and your lips from telling lies.
What is a blessing? There are many things that are blessings. I arrive safely at work. Special friends stop by my office and give a hello or a hug. A friend has an opportunity for my child that will give him a GREAT end of the day surprise. These are all blessings!
Have a great day/evening.